Wow! A whole year gone?! Already?
It was a hard year - but it was a lesson, well-learned.
Lost a lot of famous people, the unbelievable happened, and just...everything that could go wrong, DID.
Right now, for me...is a time to reflect what I got accomplished and what I need to work on.
Got a lot done this year:
-cleaned up my credit
-got a new car
-stuck it out with the job (until something better presents itself)
-went back to my home church
-learned how to be quiet and LISTEN
-spent boocoos of time with the little boy (y'all, he is a trip!!!)
-better to be seen...and let God handle the showing and the telling
But with good, comes bad, and there were some bad that was pointed out:
-habits I've dealt with most of my life have been brought to the forefront for me to settle, once and for all
-behaviors that I've passed off as my own special "quirks", that caused the separation and breakup of a...friendship(? - still working on that)
-stuff I let go of, and shouldn't have, that I need to pick back up again (like this blog)
-make amends and repair the relationship with the love of my life
I don't know what 2017 is going to bring. My prayer for the next year: that God bring me wisdom to be better and DO better, understanding to know what to do with the wisdom, and knowledge to help me overcome what I don't know. I need to learn how to stay silent, until I hear God speak - THEN, move. And that's it's okay to play the background - who I am and what my abilities are will shine when needed and necessary - and that's cool, too.
I know what 2016 taught me: to embrace and love who I am, to feel what I feel without shame or condemnation - for after all, they are MY feelings (right and wrong), and not always feel the need to express it, but when I do - state it CLEARLY.
Like Petey Pablo stated: "I been workin' at it ever since I came to this planet/And I ain't quite there yet but I'm gettin' better at it."
I didn't like you, 2016, but you made me better.
Thanks (I think).
