Venting...

blog entry 1-25-16

I need to vent.  Here is why:  ever been so caught up with someone, you could see yourself with them? And then, one day, the realization occurs:  they just don't feel the same.  Here's my poem for anyone who tried and lost out on love.

I Shouldn’t Have

I shouldn’t have met you.

I shouldn’t have liked you.

I shouldn’t have wanted to get to know you,

Because now it seems I can’t let you go.

I shouldn’t have talked with you.

I shouldn’t have prayed with you.

I shouldn’t have sang songs from my heart to you,

Because I can’t take any of it back.

I shouldn’t have wondered what your kiss would be like.

I shouldn’t have wondered how it would feel to hold you.

I shouldn’t have ever wondered if you and me could,

Because that would mean I cared.

I shouldn’t have wanted to be a friend.

I shouldn’t have wanted to let you be a possibility.

I shouldn’t have wanted to let you in my heart,

Because that would mean… no, I can’t ever admit that.

You don’t deserve it.

You never did.

And I was crazy to believe

You ever could.

But I did.

And I have.

And now,

It’s done.

 You should have, too.